Change is Hard!

Wow, it has been some time since I've last posted, March to be exact! I had so many things that I wanted to share during the months that I was quiet, but being a wife, mother and heavily involved with our bible study here at the base left me with fewer free hours in the day than I needed. O.K. no excuses; I"m sure somewhere in those 24 hours (14-16 of which I was awake :--) I could have found the time to write but I didn't. However, as I approach my birthday, this Friday to be exact, I felt the need to pen my thoughts.

My driver's license expires this Friday. It seems like I just renewed it. Wasn't it 2007 last year? I'm faced with having to provide a ton of documentation to keep my South Carolina License or getting a North Dakota License. After speaking to the rep at the SCDMV I was ready to get everything together and FEDEX it so I could have my license ASAP. But, as I started pondering over all that would need to take place I began to ask myself is this really worth it?

I've had my SCDL for 19 years this Friday. Yes, you can do the math; got it when I was 17. Yikes, wasn't I just 18 last year as well, hahahaha!Time surely stands still for no one. In that moment when I begin to think of all the steps to renew my license, I asked myself why am I holding on to a license, a piece of plastic. We will probably never live there again, I'm not even registered to vote in that state! In that moment God revealed to me that I'm too attached to things and more importantly, to the past. There isn't anything inherently wrong with that, the problem is when that becomes your main focus.

I am such a different person than that 17year old who got her DL or that 28 year old I was when I left there. It was a big thing for me to give up my last name when I married, to see my husband and the children we have together as my main family, to give up working and let my husband be the head. For so long it was my grandmother, my mother and I, just us three. When I got married, started having kids and moved away I was no longer "that" person. So, to give up my license for me signifies a dying of "that"person. "That" person wasn't bad, nor did "that" person have a horrible life. It's just that I am a new person, with a new nuclear family. For me, I have to move forward. Sure, it is good to look back on the past and remember but it is never good to stay there. So, North Dakota you are about to add one more to your database of motorists.